They are idols to millions worldwide.

I hear their names whispered in the hallways and blasted through the radio.

Their faces are never far from the television screen, tormenting me with images of what I gave up. T

o everyone else, they're unattainable rockstars, the music gods who make up The Sound of Us.

But to me? They'll always be the boys I lost.

I broke all our hearts when I refused to follow them to L.A., convinced I would only bring them down.

Years later, after I've succumbed to a monster, and my life has become something out of a nightmare, they are back.

I'm no longer the girl they left behind.

But what if I've become the woman they can't forget?