When you experience as much hurt and pain that I have throughout my life, it was very hard for me to expect anything different. When I went around family, they always found the wrong things to say to me, and it didn't bother them at all to say those horrible things out of their mouths. I swallowed it and laughed it off sometimes, and sometimes I didn't take it so well.

Because I am working on my healing and forgiving process, I stay away from all negativity. I need to be in a peaceful environment in order to concentrate on my healing and forgiving process. With peace and tranquility comes happiness and a clear mind to think and use my wisdom to heal. I have been conducting a serious inventory on my life.

After I clean out all the unwanted things out of my life, the healing and forgiving journey will begin. I feel great about this because it's what I need before I can move forward with life. Now I am happy. I still cry, but these are happy tears, and that's a fantastic feeling. I thank God for allowing my healing and forgiving process to go well. I know with all this joy comes belief, hope, and a great deal of faith.

One thing I realized through this healing and forgiving process, it made my spirit very happy, and I was very proud of myself. Everyone should learn how to forgive because it will have a great impact on your life.