In January 1996 Suzanne's first child, Timothy, was born. He had a mysterious, undiagnosed condition. Ninety minutes later, in his dad's arms, he stopped breathing. This is the true story of what happened next. When your child has a condition that can't be cured, where do you look for answers? In the first year they looked to doctors. In the second year they looked to holistic practitioners. In the third year they looked within. This book is about how Suzanne, and Tim's dad, learnt to trust their own instincts, through dreams and intuition. It's about the way an apparently fragile, highly vulnerable individual can create the perfect conditions for personal happiness and even spiritual awakening in others.